I think some of us were taught the wrong thing about a lot of things and because we are told not to follow our feelings, we can "think" ourselves deeper into lives that don't service our spirits.
This process results in angry humans instead of joyous souls.
What makes you happy? What delights you? I'm not just talking about work, I am talking about everything!
What fashion excites you? What cup makes you want to drink from it? What people make you happy to leave your home? When you leave your home, what are you excited to do? What charges your spirit up and makes it easy for you to pass along the kindness?
Whatever those things are, that's how we should decide what we do for a living.
If we built careers that encompassed all that we found joy in, we would not dread the workday.
I have days where I see the purpose in what I am doing but I do not delight in it.
I honestly need time to recover from it when I have personal time. I am sure that there are others in positions that support the public and the less fortunate - find the emotional toll it can take on you draining.
However, some get rejuvenated in these positions because the help that they can provide motivates them despite the hardship that others might be enduring. These are natural-born servants. The story can be heartbreaking but they find the opportunity to be of service and help with a solution; they find the best way to contribute. Being able to give some motivation to keep going.
We need to encourage those that do not have this natural ability to go and find what delights them because nothing is worst than horrible ass customer service. Your job is a choice, if it pisses you off then do something else.
We need to encourage those that do not have this natural ability to go and find what delights them because nothing is worst than horrible ass customer service. Your job is a choice, if it pisses you off then do something else.
I say all that to say, my job makes me sad. I feel sad more times than I feel happy and it's hard to find joy when I hear so much suffering and pain all day long. It breaks my heart. It is breaking my spirit.
I don't feel like I am ready to leave what I am doing but I do feel that my heart is being pulled in another direction and it will make sense in due time.
This time I don't have to lift a finger or make any decisions, the universe is figuring it out on my behalf and all I need to do is prepare for the pivot.
The discipline to pivot at the time that I am called to, is the only assignment I have at this current time. In the meantime, I am drained all while knowing that none of this is in vain. Every moment of discomfort is a reminder that this is another learning experience for everything I want to be.
The goal is to just stay focused and prepare for the pivot.
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