I wonder what I'm going to be when I grow up.
Sometimes I feel like I'm grown already and on days like this, I realize that I am still growing. I feel like grown people have attachments. Life made choices for them so they can't choose what they are committed to. Like children. Mostly everyone I know has a child or children. Their top priorities revolve around providing for and sustaining the best life for those children. Their child becomes their why and they become a parent. They will always be a parent no matter what.
I wonder what I'm going to be when I grow up; no matter what.
Definitely not a mom.
I don't think wife is something you become when you grow up. To me, that's like a friend... If you make friends or not, you can still become something.
Same with children though, if you have them or not - you still can become something...
Perhaps I'm thinking more of a path life lays out for you and you feel called to do it. Have you ever met that mom? The type you know she was born to mother? Or the dad that was born to be a father?
Then there are those with children and you wonder, why? Surely, they know they are not equipped for the responsibility...
Hmmm, life gave them a path but they were not prepared to take on the responsibility. Just because some are birth mothers and fathers, that does not make them parents...
So, it all comes down to choice.
The question is not I wonder what I'm going to be when I grow up. The real question is, now that I am grown, what do I want to become?
The only thing that comes to mind is an overall good person. Not by anyone else standards but by becoming the best truth-teller, by becoming a considerate person, kind, caring, and gentle in my correction when boundaries are crossed. Patient and forgiving but never sacrifice my soul or morals to get along or go along. Always in alignment.
I want to become a master of peace.
With the ability to project peace on to others.
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