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| Artist Unknown |
I can't afford the time it takes to heal from being in some people's presence.
I've tried in the past, and I have been unsuccessful in my attempts to project instead of absorb all the energy that others give off. There has always been a level of guilt that I have carried knowing that my hello's and goodbye's happen simultaneously when it comes to protecting the peace I am attempting to build within.
I am a student of self. I am continuously learning what is best for my spirit and the conditions I must be in to thrive. In order for me to successfully make it through this lifetime, I must not fear being alone. The one thing I have always known is that I feel pulled toward solitude in ways that I could never explain to someone who would like it to make sense.
Personally, I don't need any of this to make sense. I just need to feel whole while doing what I feel called to do, and that is how I know that I am moving in the right direction.
Those who are called to be on this journey with me will be blessed by my discipline, and I will be blessed by their discipline. We all have to do our part in living the life that we are called to live if we would like to be blessed as a collective.
Noah, building the Ark is still blessing me. What if he didn't follow that internal guidance (the voice of God)?
Intuitively, I will do what I am being led to do, in hopes that all are blessed by that obedience.
If the price of my presence is my peace, I can't afford it.