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| Artist Unknown |
I was thinking about connection. Thinking about how I connect with others and how I imagine that they connect with me, and how I have expectations of the connection, and I believe that actually ruins the connection.
Does that make sense?
I reads confusing, but I know what I mean, so it also "feels" clearly written out to me. What I am trying to say is, I have felt a genuine connection with someone and denied it because I can see that they don't understand how to treasure connections.
I have talked myself out of some connections that I believed could have been an amazing experience, all because I feared they didn't understand how magical this all could be. I didn't see that they valued themselves in some way, and came to the conclusion that they could not value others.
Moving forward, I want to allow the connection even if it ends in ruin.
I am accepting that I can trust the experience and not the people/person. The way that I trust God to lead and guide me, I have to allow Him to work in other people as well. I am nothing but a vessel
I pray that the people I want to connect with can appreciate being in relation with me, but I also surrender the control of what that means. I pray that the ones I need to connect with are gently placed on my path. I pray that I know them by their energy and presence and not their appearance.
I know it is a blessing to experience me, just as I know it is a blessing to experience others. Present with fear, I let go of the fear, and I surrender to the universe to all the connections that I need to make to be made with pure intentions in honor of the service I am supposed to complete on this journey.